Insha Allah I’ll Done This Exam

This day is an unusual day for me. because this day is my starting point of doing some final preparation for CCDA exam.

All the materials is complete, and it’s time to fight. That word look so strong right? but the real thing is the opposite side within me. I’m so confused and feel difficult to understand and remember.

Every day I spent the time with exam engine, trying to understand the path and some exercise. But suddenly I feel helpless and darkness every where I see. What’s wrong with me? I am learning well, configuring is OK (although the 640-863 DESGN test is no configuration lab) but I am fear for the real battle, I am lost..

The darkness ends when my friend talk to me via YM!. he gave me this link and suggest me to watch it.He said to me “just watch this video, and you will know what’s your mistake”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfXIF2Mm2Kc

Jangan Biarkan Bumi Selalu Malam Hari

Kamu cerdas, kamu pintar, tapi tidak ada semangat yang menggerakkan nya, itu ibarat mobil tanpa mesin alias mati atau tidak jalan. Pandai, bila rendah diri adalah ibarat matahari yang selalu tenggelam dan dunia akan terus menjadi malam. Harusnya kau menyadari masa depanmu bukan berada di tanganku, melainkan dalam anganmu yang menunggu untuk menyeberangi jembatan asa yang  terputus oleh  skeptisismemu sendiri. Entah kapan kau akan berhenti terpuruk dan menunjuk individu seberang. Entah kapan kau akan bangkit dan bertarung melawan ego diri seraya terus berlari. Tapi harapan itu akan terus ada.

Dreamer Man come back!

Dreamer Man come back!

One year ago he went to another part of the earth. To found anything important for his goal. And now he would be appear again with us for a while. My memory flashing in my past time when I was in Jakarta. That time he came to me and told me that he have been accepted by scholarship foundation to continue his post graduate degree in Taiwan. This dreamer man said to me that “nothing is impossible to do. several years ago we were nothing, but now we are different. one thing makes us different, we are some people made of many dreams and imaginations, and the differences is we always try to make it happen with our true colors and life styles!”

It was  12.00 pm in Block M sidewalk when he said that sentences, suddenly my body surrounded by different wind. A warmer wind that brought my dream fly away into the sky. I’ve been realized by this man that life shouldn’t be stuck. I have to be developed, and the one who capable to develop my self is my own will!

One year have been passed. He is almost done his post graduate degree there, then continuing his study to post doctoral degree. And I?  I am still trying to reach my goal. And my goal is, being a network scientist who teach and transferring my abilities to Indonesian youngsters.

Little Motivation From My Self

The days are still running away, so do I. within bad condition of financial caused by unemployment status, I try to be more optimistic every day. Scientific British English is my friend now. Journals and network literatures are my book that I always been read each day besides attending an English course for preparing IELTS test. Maybe this is climax of energy. I feel very tired of this. One thing make me strong is this is my dream for a long time ago, and now I’m on the right track to make it real. All the things to do are I’ve just been strong and keep on the track. This is just my process to be stronger and mature. I believe I can make it, be strong kikky…

When The Door Opened

The door to be an international student is now opened. The ADS scholarship is await for indonesian international student wannabe to go international to Australia. This is should be a great momentum for me to make a jump. But, tragedy! I’m not ready yet to join the competition. Almost hopeles to realize that that this time I’m collecting no one of the qualifications of that scholarship (no pasport, no english birth certificate, no bachelor certificate stamped by law ministry). The time line is too short to make it all mine after I’m resigning my job. Sad? Of course. Canceled again, and i’m still in indonesia. Steping my foot in indonesian roadway again. But I won’t give up to the reality. My dream is waitting me, and I’ll make it real. Maybe ADS is not the door that I have through to be a scientist, but I know, there are a hundred doors are waitting me to passed. Just wait for me there my dream, I’ll go there to pick you up soon, as soon as I can, Insya Allah..

Crossroad of Destiny

Finally I’m standing here. This is the intersection in my life. There are two options in my face, continue my study overseas or work again like I’ve done before. This is a hard choice. I want to work at this time, but on the other hand, continuing my study is my dream to. But life is about to choose I think, and I have to choose one of them. Well, this is hard choice but I should be brave to say that I love studying very much. I hope I can prove to my self that I could reach the world. this would be difficult, but this is my challenge, and I’ve done this. A new chapter of my live is beginning, and I’m ready for this battle.

my life over overview

finally i have my own page. this is what i want for a long time. i hope this page will be my life’s complete review, and useful for my friends and other